For the past 8 months I have really been living a lie..
I met a guy who I thought was absolutely amazing!!
Only to find out that I was totally wrong about him the entire time.
He built me up, and made me feel like I was on top of the world and nothing could go wrong,
Then pushed me down.
The first time, I tried looking past it.
But then it started happening over and over again.
I thought maybe it was because he was stressed and dealing with alot, so I stuck it out.
I really thought I loved him. Thought he was the one for me.
Then I got pregnant with my second baby.
Thought things would be better now,
I was wrong again. It only got worse..
The beating got worse, The hurtful words hurt more..
Then my daughter started getting some of it.
Being treated like she didnt matter by him.
I still tried looking past everything,
Giving it a chance, and also so scared to leave.
So scared to say no to anything he wanted…
Fianlly I thought we could get on the right path and give eachother the space we needed and the trust we deserved. Even after the wrong he did to me.
I was still faithful and only loving him.
I still forgve him..
Until he was gone all night,
No contact, no nothing.
I didnt know if he was ok or if he had gotten hurt.
Finally he came home. But he said he “messed” up.
He walks in with a huge hickey on his neck.
Of course I was broken..
I believed his story and said id let it go because I wanted it to work for my kids.
But he still needed another night away?!
Okay, not gonna happen.
Of course he got his way.
After a big fight and getting kicked out of the car I finally made it to a friends. Only for him to
treat me like dirt.
I had my daughter go to her fathers for a few days,
Only to end up getting beat for the next three days straight..
The last day when he got me good and did it all infront of my babygirl
I finally had ENOUGH,
I called the cops.
Got him arrested and had a restraining order put against him.
I ended up not being able to finish carrying my son.
Ill never get to meet him or know his smile,
Or be able to watch him grow up.
But I know hes in a better place now and I know me and my daughter will one day be safe
and never ever have to hear this mans name or anything about him again,
I really hope justice gets served and people who do these evil things get what they deserve.
The gret thing now though is that I finally get to have my life back.
Im having to figure out who I am again,
but thats ok..
I know me and my daughter are fine and safe and are always loved.
We will make it and be just fine.
I am happy to say that I AM A SURVIVOR OF ABUSE!!
Part of my new tattoo. Can’t wait to finish the rest :)) (Taken with Instagram)
Is it possible to get along and just admit our wrongs.. Our BabyGirl deserves so much.. She deserves a happy family on both sides!!!! IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK FOR…. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH What am I doing wrong????!!!! ://